I am the author of this website, a writer, and a lifelong student of comparative religions, metaphysics, and the occult. I was born in Carmel, California, under the sign of Aries with Leo Rising, a triple fire sign, to an Austrian “bloodline” mother (Bauer/Rothschild) and a Scots-Irish/Native American father (Campbell Clan).
I am an avid researcher of just about everything. I love discovering new information in an attempt to understand the world we find ourselves in and the people in it. Because of this, I have completed a degree in counseling psychology, and have collected several certificates (of varying value) from a myriad of schools on metaphysics and the occult, including Druidry, Wicca, Witchcraft, Ceremonial Magick (light and dark), Rosicrucianism, Scientology (NOT affiliated), Paganism, Buddhism, Tantra, and Shamanism. I studied comparative religions in seminary with a focus on Old Testament history and Gnostic studies. I have been initiated into various mystery schools, and I have studied with a Tibetan Lama and have been initiated in the Vajrayana Buddhist Red Tara tradition.
Secularly, I worked for 9 years as a paralegal, which gave me a great deal of writing and research experience while working for language perfectionists (lawyers), well before computers came along that made revisions possible without retyping entire pages(!) I have also worked as a chemical dependency and communications counselor, a professional tarot reader, a sound engineer for live music (trained at Heavenly Recording Studios in Sacramento, CA), and as a musician (bass, guitar, keyboards, harp, and vocals) in a few rock bands from the 1980’s up to the present.
Because I’ve come to the conclusion that balance is a necessity when delving into the Great Mysteries, I gained experience in both the positive (service to others, or STO) and negative (service to self, or STS) spiritual polarities. I do not see one as “better” than the other, but I have made the choice to follow the path of Service to Others while retaining a strong sense of balance. This was not always the case, however.
Born Unto the Dark Side
I am a part of a “bloodline” family known as Bauer (my grandmother was Anna Bauer). It was Amschel Bauer who later changed their family name to Rothschild.
My ancestors have been traced back to successful alchemists and magicians as far back as the Middle Ages.
The leading alchemist was a German Richard Bauer who was alive sometime in the 14 or 15 hundreds. Richard Bauer is said to have been the only alchemist who was successful in transforming lead to gold. Whether that report is meant in an allegorical way, or some other way I do not know. What I am trying to communicate is that the Bauer family was a leading alchemical family which secretly practiced Hermetic magic during the late Middle Ages.
My deep lifelong interest in the occult stems, I believe, from the genetics of this bloodline. Many things have been discovered to be handed down via genetics, including personality traits and interests. I was entranced by the occult as a child, being the one weirdo in the neighborhood who would hold regular Ouija board seances. Once I discovered the science of alchemy in my teens, it felt as if I had found a long-lost friend.
In the early 80’s, I lived for two years in the San Francisco Bay Area in a house with several members of the O∴T∴O∴ (Ordo Templi Orientis), including the Caliphate at the time, Grady McMurtry. I learned much from the old wizard, and studied deeply into Ceremonial Magick, Aleister Crowley’s writings, and magical Kabbalah. (I didn’t join the Order proper since I was lucky enough to have access to the head honcho at the time, and in hindsight, this is probably a good thing.) 🙂
In my younger years (early 20s to mid-40s), I was quite naturally drawn to a well-known, and very negative, magickal organization. I spent 14 years of my life involved with this group, eventually joining its Priesthood to continue my occult studies. (However, I wish to make it clear that I was never involved in sacrificial rituals or with harming others in any way. I saw this path only as a means to personal spiritual evolution rather than for the manipulation and control of other-selves.)
Eventually, however, as I evolved on my spiritual path, I left the organization under not-so-friendly terms. The disagreement I had, strangely enough, was that I felt (and still do) that compassion is a necessary component of the spiritual life but, obviously, this attitude was not supported, nor wanted, in that organization. At that time, being an “elitist,” for me, consisted of expressing a sense of inner nobility as a part of the Creator that all have, rather than as an expression of dominance over others.
One of my mentors at the time was the wife of the founder, Lilith Aquino, and later Zeena Schreck, the estranged daughter of Anton LaVey, founder of the Church of Satan. Zeena eventually went on to become the High Priestess of the Temple of Set, but has since renounced Satanism in favor of the Karma Kagyu lineage of Tibetan Buddhism.
For those who wonder how I could have spent 14 years in the Temple of Set and not know about the darker aspects of their activities can be explained by their extreme compartmentalization between the degrees in the Order. As a Priestess of Set, I was at the top level of the public section of the Order at the third degree level, whereas the fourth degree (Magister) and fifth degrees (Magus) had their own closed door meetings that even the Priesthood was not privy to. Most mystery schools operate in this manner, using the lower degrees as a filtering system in order to find those who would be willing to take the next step.
It was through the Temple that I learned of the MK Ultra programs from the High Priest at the time, Michael Aquino. Although he passed it off as a “very interesting thing that the CIA used to do,” I was eventually to find out that this program is still ongoing and it’s victims are legion, and that Aquino himself was heavily involved.
Since leaving the Temple of Set in the early 2000’s, I discovered the work of David Wilcock, David Icke, Graham Hancock, Simon Parkes, and others in the Disclosure Movement, from which I learned about the existence of the very real intergalactic human trafficking programs, MILABs (military abductions), and more about the MK Ultra and Monarch Programs. Through various online resources, I began to come across some of the victims of these programs, and since I had been involved with the man who was responsible for at least some of this horror, I felt obligated, and maybe even destined, to reach out and attempt to help those who were harmed. This has allowed me to get a much deeper look into the mechanics and plans of the “elite.
In working with the survivors of these programs, I heard first-hand information coming from veterans of the Secret Space Program regarding the reality of the ET presence on this planet, as well as humanity’s presence on military bases throughout our solar system, and possibly beyond. Because of this, I am a dedicated supporter of the Full Disclosure Now movement.
In any event, my educational and experiential background has enabled me to understand not only the philosophy, methods, and goals of the negative polarity, but I believe it has put me in a unique position to help those who have been victimized by groups such as these. Because of this, I have done some informal counseling and am open to private emails and texts regarding this topic.
The Light Side
It was also through David Wilcock that I first learned about the Law of One material.
Having discovered the Ra material shortly after leaving the Temple of Set, I immediately recognized it as something I was already very familiar with at a deep soul level.
After several read-throughs of all five books in the series, I knew there would be others who would recognize this material for what it was, but I found that there were many who are put off by the wording and syntax in the original text. This is my reason for creating the Law of One Commentary, as my own attempt to put the text in simpler, easy-to-understand language.
To me, it’s important that students of the Law of One material understand that the negative polarity, or service to self path, is not necessarily “evil,” though in its extreme manifestations it certainly can be. As Ra said:
The Law of One blinks neither at the light or the darkness, but is available for service to others and service to self. However, service to others results in service to self, thus preserving and further harmonizing the distortions of those entities seeking intelligent infinity through these disciplines.
Therefore, the positive polarity is more balanced, and more accurate.
My formal education includes a college degree in psychology (chemical dependency, family counseling, and human services), as well as a college certificate in graphic arts.
I spent a year in seminary with a goal of becoming a traditional minister or priest, and spent a year-long internship as a chaplain at a local college. However, these more traditional spiritual pursuits fell through when I unearthed the existence of the deep corruption in the Christian church systems. It soon became clear that the corruption I was encountering stemmed from organized religion of every flavor, soon realizing that all religions are control systems, regardless of the path.
Still, I very much enjoyed my time in seminary, and while there I spent a great deal of time studying Old Testament history (the study of the political climate and the historical context of each book), as well as the Gnostic texts that were kept out of the regular canon by the “elite” controllers. I have also taken several courses on comparative religions and philosophies.
My education, as always, continues.